Just like me, writing it first right before bed, in my head - always a bad idea.

But yeah, a lot of it has to do with how a story is or isn't satisfying you fully on screen. And trying to explore alternatives to that. For me the big oddness, and part is the ship thing, that I am rarely drawn to read Angel fanfic. And yet, it's not like I have a strong ship feelings about Buffy, I can read a ton of ships equally.

With Angel, I think I much more likely to kneejerk away with "that's not Wes or Connor or Angel or Cordelia or Gunn" or whatever and then, not be able to continue.