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*falls asleep*

Hee! I am feeling quite catlike today, I must say! All curled up and cosy and content with myself. Although SLEEPY, since a certain Kovsky kept me up later than I planned on AIM. That or the Mucinex. BEHOLD THE POWER OF MUCINEX! But I am feeling quite lazy and lethargic, although I had brief excitement when I could find neither my glasses or my car keys this morning, thus resulting in me being late for work.

Not that it really matters today because it is also a soft-focus and quiet day at work - I like it.

I composed a post in my head last night that was very eloquent and then I lost it all. Naturally. Still, I cling to the belief that it would have had insight that would have changed the world.



Mostly, I was thinking about my fannish reading habits. I was talking to the Fod and we both kind of realized - neither of us read a lot of Angel fanfic. It's the show that was closest to my heart - is closest to my heart. But in many ways I am so attached to the characters, to my views on who and what they are, that it's hard for me to find fic to read that works for me. Buffy, while I loved the show, I had less of that extraordinarly strong emotional attachment to the characters and that's the fandom that I really read in. And even that is grain of salt-y - I started reading fanfic during season 7, which is a season I'm very curious to see what it'll be like to watch it straight through, because of my own issues with dropped plots/blinds.

Anyway, right now - Angel fanfic is the thing I am still least likely to read, even though it's still the show I feel strongest about and identify myself with fannishly. And yet, what do I seek out? I'm wanting HP recs and fics right now, I just finished going through a period when I was reading just about anything that was Clark/Lex related that I could find - and even now if there was something rec'ed by Vi, I'd drop it and read.

But the thought of reading Angel fanfic is just...not appealing. Or maybe less appealing is the better term. Oh, it is, every once in a while, if I get a very strong rec from somebody whose characterizations match mine. And, for example, I am loving ats_nolimits. But other than that...

And this isn't new. I've always been only a dabbler in reading Angel-fic, comparitively speaking.

And then there are other things - I've been watching both Babylon 5, Alias and Farscape now. And loving/enjoying them in their own levels, and yet I don't really have a desire to read fic about them, at least not yet.

On the other hand, Lost? I could see Lost hitting an urge for me - the few short pieces out there that I've read have entranced me. I could see wanting more.

So I can't quite figure out - what it is that will make me want to read fanfic and what won't. What the elusive draw is. And that doesn't even include the issue with RPS, and why certain pairings/concepts attract. Like, why I'm totally fine reading Dom LotRPS but so far haven't really thought the EXACT SAME 'character' in LOST-based LotRPS doesn't seem to appeal. (And it's not even a character thing, about not being interested in the other actors, because, ok, this is where it gets freaky - the only RPS I've written myself took place in a world in which it was Lost-centric!). I just realized how very little sense my preferences make.

And I'm still surprised at how much I like reading in Smallville fandom, when I still only dabble in watching the show (I have all the S4 episodes, but haven't made time to watch them).

Or how much I'm adoring certain HP pairings, when I didn't think I'd ever really want to read in that fandom at all. And that's even weirder, because I'm actually rereading Harry/Draco stories and the thing is - I RARELY reread fanfic. Eliade's Season Noir is like, one of two long fics in Buffy fandom that I reread - and that was a refreshing when she posted her last chapter. I reread books often, I never reread fanfic, particularly long ones - I am not sure why. Until now, in which suddenly I'm shifting and rereading fics I read only a few weeks ago. (I don't count reading a fic (short) a couple of times back to back to see the nuances as rereading. Because I am lame and am making up my own definitions).

What is this babbling about? Mostly I was curious to see how others feel. Is there a fandom that you feel very close to, but you don't actuallly read much in? Shows (or ships) you adore but can't see the appeal of the fic? Shows you don't even watch but you read the fic in? Because the latter is how I started on Smallville.



My coffee was yummy this morning but man, I'd love another cup. And yet, it is not to be. UNLESS I decide to go home over lunch, a fact which is extraordinarily appealing.

And I have got to get my act together and buy stuff to make my Halloween costume for the Halloween party tomorrow night. I'm gonna go as the Fish Killer and have a plaque with Bruce Lee mounted on it, and a string of other fish. There will be enough people from the office there that it will be funny. TO ME!